I-wish
Bear with me as I bare my soul.

I wish I could be cool, like the in-crowd; do whatever, say whatever, go wherever.
I wish it was okay to fib, not for selfish gain, but as to not hurt someone for my telling the truth.
I wish fornication wasn’t a sin and that I could express my love freely with the one I share it without the complexity of a marriage.
I wish that for every person who sought to harm me I could repay them ten times worse than what they’ve done intentionally.
I wish I could be totally uninhibited just for one day without a care in the world and live a little. You only live once…
I can do all of the above, but I can’t, if you know what I mean. Because I am subscribed to a faith that puts a halt on these activities, for my benefit I know, but that doesn’t stop my wanting to do them.
I always tell myself that every mistake that has to be made, has already been made, and that I don’t have to make them myself to learn from it. History is full of examples. I know that God has my very best interest at heart and always acting on what I feel would be unwise.
So I’ll rest in the fact that I am cool, and don’t have to do whatever, say whatever, or go wherever, to be that. I’ll rest knowing that I don’t have to fib, and that there are ways to be honest, which most appreciate any day more than a lie. I’ll rest knowing that waiting for marriage before sex is priceless and that as complicated as marriage can be, there is nothing too hard for the Lord.
I’ll rest with the awareness that when my enemies try to hurt me, they are only hurting themselves, and whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.
I’ll rest with the understanding that “You Only Live Once” doesn’t apply because there is a life after death, and I know where I want to spend mine.
Life uninhibited is life in Christ. I’ll stop focusing on what isn’t and focus on what is, because that’s where the deceit comes in. God has better plans for me than I could ever have for myself.
You want to know His wish? “Beloved I wish above all things that you would prosper and be in health, even as your soul prospers. (3rd John 1:2)” I can’t compete with that. I don’t even know why I tried. My wish has now become His. That’s all the rest I need.

By: Lady M.