God is able to do just what he said he will do. He’s gonna fulfill every promise to you. Don’t give up on God, ‘cause he won’t give up on you. He’s able.”

That song keeps ringing in my head. As if to reassure me that if I hold on just a little while longer, as the old folks would say, I will get my breakthrough. But I am tired, and this isn’t working out for me. I know what the Word says; I know scripture better than a mother knows her own child. And even though I can attest to His faithfulness doubt is getting the best of me. I can’t help but to ask God, where are you?

Sometimes He seems so afar off that I forget those moments when He was close by. The days He hasn’t come through feels like years and I don’t count the times before when He came through in seconds. Past experiences have taught me not to count Him out just yet. He’s always faithful; it just doesn’t feel like it right now.

I don’t get why God chooses to allow situations to stretch my faith.  Stretch my faith? Who needs another lesson in faith when my time is limited the little faith that I do have is dwindling? But God is the father of time, so running out of time shouldn’t be an issue.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, says the Lord (Isaiah 55:8).” “For I know the plans I have for you… plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).”

I can’t always grasp what God is doing, and no matter how much I’m tempted to throw in the towel, something compels me to tighten my grip. I’ve held on to relationships longer than I was willing to hold on to God. I’ve held on to jobs I hated longer than I was willing to hold on to God. I’ve held on to all sorts of things longer than I should. So I will hold on to God, and every word he’s promised and said.

Written by: Shenelle Wallace