“I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. I love God’s law with all my heart. But there is another power within me that is at war with my mind.”– Romans 7:19-22 NLT
I hear you Paul. Man oh man do I hear you. And I’m not talking about the obvious things that’s an expected struggle, like sexual sin. I’m talking about the things most tend to overlook like anger, pride, holding a grudge, or wanting revenge on those who have done me wrong. I am human. 100%. And I’ve dealt with a lot of emotional heaviness due to constant violation and no resolve. That human side of me wants to snap back on one hand. On the other, being 100% Christian, I know that’s not the way to go. But it eats me up inside, and sometimes I don’t know what to do. We tend overlook the little things. But the presumably “little sins” count too. Thankfully, there is a scripture for everything.
The Bible is honest, and tells of the shortcomings of so many. But it also tells us how to deal with our own downfalls and how not to fall into the same traps.”Walk in the spirit and you will not fulfill the lust of the flesh” (Galatians 5:16). Simply put, if you sow into your human nature, you will reap what it brings. If you sow into your spirit, you will reap what that brings (Galatians 6:8).
“Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord” (Romans 7:24-25). Paul ends his fury with this statement. And I will too. So yes, I am all human, and all Christian. However, I’ll choose to continue working at dominating my conflicting desires, whatever they may be, by continuously building up my spirit; leaning on God to help me do so.